So not only does the wonderful BRCA 1 gene I possess mean that I get my chest butchered but I also have an increased risk of ovarian cancer. Well you know what that means right? Yep…I get to have those removed too. When? I have no idea. Because losing your ovaries sucks worse than losing your breasts. Why? Because what 35 year old woman wants to go through menopause? Not this one!
But I must remember…….lose your breast + lose your ovaries = keep your life.
I keep stumbling around on the internet researching and looking for something helpful. I need to do more research about my situation and what I plan to do. I read an amazing story from another BRCA person…35. Her story was empowering and just what I needed to read. But then I just have this overwhelming nausea that I can’t shake. And I feel hot inside…and like my heart is going to pound out of my chest. I can’t imagine if today was the day for me to make that step. One of these days…not too far from now… it will be. Will I feel this way every time I think about it? Will I feel this scared every time? Thank goodness I pray…that’s about all that seems to calm me down.
Do not be afraid….Do not be afraid…Do not be afraid